Personal Blog #1: Retard.

Alright.. I guess this it's time for my blog to get personal..

Fuck life. I never say "naughty"words.. But I've said that phrase about 45 times today, and I mean it. 

FUCK LIFE.

Y'know getting called a retard by one person, wasn't really bad.. It kinda angered me, because he still think he's smarter than me.. and so does the rest of the fucking world.. So, I just decided to mute him for a little while. ( XBOX Live )

Then someone asked me why I muted him, and this is how that convo goes:

?: Why'd you mute him?

Me: Because he called me a retard.

?: Well, everyone calls you a retard.. behind your back.

Me: ..

As if I didn't know, it just hurts.. *sigh*..

You know what, I'm done with "talking" and "socializing". I do things alone from now on.  Lone wolf style. Sure, I'll get lonely.. but at least, I won't be dependent on others. Maybe that's my problem, I depend on people.. I don't want your help.. I don't need it, either.. Maybe if I become more independent I won't get hurt as much..

Friends? Pfft. forget them. There's only two friends I'm willing to keep at this point:
My best friend and my girlfriend..

After I graduate from high school, I'm not gonna have friends.. So why even try to keep them?

It's not like anyone's actually gonna remember Vinay, until they need/want something.

I bet I'll forget all about this moment..Sooner or later.. and learn to trust people, but for now fuck them.

And now if you'll excuse me, it's time for a nap. I'm not feeling too great, in depression and alone.. Not good..